Wednesday, October 8, 2008

A Pity Party!

It's been a week since I last posted and although I have been reading all of yours and leaving comments, I have felt I have little to share. Sometimes the fingers are willing to do the typing, but the mind just won't engage. I have sat with my laptop at the ready, pictures loaded, and .... little comes. So many of you are writing about your fall gardening chores and how much you have accomplished. Most are showing pictures of still blooming fall beauties and you are sharing some of the last sightings of butterflies. And here I still sit.


Before you feel too sorry for me or think I am whining-which I am, I know a lot of my blahs have to do with still not resting very well and this darn rash. Yes, it is getting better. But I can see now it is going to take weeks for it to heal. The Prednisone is helping but at the same time makes my skin feel like it is crawling and I am sure it is making me grumpy. That's the polite term my husband is using for my temperament these days. I am peeling yet and then the part that peels is peeling again. The rash was deep and many layers of skin have to come off-gross!!
The good part is, my face is almost done peeling and I can wear a little makeup now so I don't look quite the hideous monster of a week ago. I do want to thank everyone for all their care and concern. It has helped!



So fall is here, we've had some rain, the ground is workable and I should be outside happy as a lark working in my long neglected gardens. I have bulbs to plant and lots of clean up to do. Maybe in a few days.

A bright spot yet is 'heavenly blue'. Still putting out gorgeous blooms everyday with no help from me. I see a little lessening of buds and some of the blooms aren't as big, but she still make me smile.
I promise to work on my attitude and try to find my muse. And I promise to try and have a more upbeat post next time.
Hope you are having a great fall.

25 comments:

Roses and Lilacs said...

Hi Beckie. I feel the same way and I don't even have a good reason. This time of year there just isn't anything going on in my the garden anyone would want to hear about.

Anyway, I'm glad you are checking in to tell us you are getting better.

Your morning glory is still looking fabulous. I love a plant that gives back so much for the little effort it requires from the gardener.
Marnie

Cheryl said...

Dear Beckie....no one else can possibly know how you feel and how you are coping....people are kind and send wishes but still we carry the burden.....you have every right to be fed up, it must be awful for you....I can't imagine what you are going through....

I do hope that relief will soon come and things get back on track .....you are in my mind a lot at the moment....I am concerned about you.....

The autumn leaves are beautiful......and that morning glory...what can I say....it is a star.....

flydragon said...

Hey beckie,
So glad the rash is getting better, but so sad that it's taking so darn long. Whine all you want, we don't mind at all, and if it helps at all, I'll whine with you.

Jane Marie said...

I guess we'tr all going through it. That's the problem with writing a seasonal blog. I've had writer's block for days, and struggle to find a new subject

Gail said...

Beckie,

I hear sharing, not whining! When my si joint acts up and I wake up every hour in hurt mode...my energies and coping resources drain away. It doesn't matter that the ground is workable and the sun is shining...sometimes I just need to lay on the couch and watch a really bad movie! I am so glad you are visiting everyone, we are here for you!

Gail

perennialgardener said...

Hi Beckie, sorry you aren't feeling kind of blah right now. Hope you get your motivation & creativity back soon. Your photos are gorgeous!

Morning Glories in Round Rock said...

Ah, there is just something about Morning Glories that just lift the spirits and make you smile, even though they can be a bit-ahem--pushy, indiscriminantly sowing themselves all over the garden!

That has to be one nasty rash! I think just being able to post again shows you are starting to heal. Please be kind to yourself. Do something just for you, rest and don't push yourself too hard. Know that there are lots of people that care about you.

Beth said...

well, inspired or not that was a very enjoyable post. I'm glad you are healing and thanks for sharing the pretty pictures from your autumn.

Laurie and Chris said...

Glad you are starting to feel some better. I love all the pictures you have posted. Take care.

Susie said...

Hey Beckie-With that rash I think you are entitled to feel a little down. It's never fun to have things happen and we can't control them.

Rose said...

Beckie, you are entitled to have a pity party with all that you have endured the last couple months! And worst of all is having to go off the Lyrica after the wonders it has done for you. Maybe we can plan a real getaway day yet before winter sets in.
As for the absence of your muse, don't feel bad. I took a 10-second video of the trees blowing in the rain just to have something to post, for pity's sake! Ah, soon the leaves will turn, and we'll all be showing off our trees:)

Mary said...

Awwww, Beckie. For someone who is feeling blah, your post here is wonderful.

Better days are ahead, you know. Rashes don't last forever and you will be OK.

Just keep eyeing those Morning Glories!

Mary

P.S. - I am quite familiar with, "fingers on keys - no words."

LOL!

beckie said...

Marnie, we should invite others to joinour pity party. :) I think it's a combination of knowing winter is coming and the days getting shorter. But it will pass. Thanks for caring.

Cheryl,people are kind-especially the garden bloggers.Aren't they great support group. I just get a little down sometimes ans it does help to vent. I guess I am just trying to things with this rash. Hubby says it didn't come on in a week and it won't go away in a week. :) Thanks for thinking of me, I know you send good thoughts. I thought I was going to get to collect seeds from the morning glory, but no seed pods. I was going to share.

beckie said...

Flydragon, we could have cheese with our whine. :) Thanks for offering to share.

Jane Marie, I just don't have much in the gardening department other than massive cleanup to do. And I don't want to do it so can't even brag about accomplishing that. The holidays will soon be here and we can dicuss them-maybe even drop a few hints as to what is on our Christmas wish list. No matter what you post, I always enjoy it.

beckie said...

Gail, couch days are good sometimes! And you'r right about coping resources. It doesn't take me long to lose them when I am hurting and not sleeping. I need my beauty sleep. :)Hope you got a good rain!!

Thanks, Racquel. You have motivation for 2! I am in awe of all you have done this fall. Your gardens are going to get a good rest and will thrive next year.

beckie said...

MG, I was going to collect seed from this one but no seed pods. I guess this is a sterile type? It may send up runners next spring though and I could have my hands full. I knew you would enjoy seeing this one again. Isn't thata Heavenly Blue bloom as your sign? Thanks for the advice and for caring.

Beth, I'm glad you liked it, but it sounds like a sniveler wrote it. :) Our fall is coming slowly, maybe with the rain te trees won't look so drab now. Keep taking pictures of your beautiful Maine's autumn.

beckie said...

Thanks, Laurie and Chris. I appreciate your concern.

Susie, at my age, I should be above feeling sorry for myself. :) I suppose that is part of it-no control. I'm just not very patient with things like this.

beckie said...

Rose, you know how can get sometimes. It starts with a B and ends ITCHY! And I am feeling sorry for myself about the Lyrica. Maybe, I can still take it only a smaller dose. Will just have to be patient. Looking forward to tomorrow, I always enjoy a day with you.

Mary, Would you mind telling the rash it won't last forever!? :) Thanks for the encouragement. Your fingers always type the most delightful posts. I look forward to your writings to brighten my day.

Naturegirl said...

Beckie look at the brighter side of things..you are getting a brand NEW beautiful youthfull glowing complexion and body with all the exfoliating happening!!A new woman an new beginning! I know the discomfort you feel but be kind to yourself as your body takes this time to renew and heal. Autumn is a cozy time to curl up and just let the world go by..as you snuggle with a good book magazine and a cuppa warm soothing something!
Thinking of you. hugs NG

Mr. McGregor's Daughter said...

Itchy stinks! It always makes me cranky, & I've never had a rash that bad. You're entitled to a pity party (sans mini violins). I seem to have the opposite problem to yours, I have so much to write, but life has gotten so busy. And then there are all the things I need to do in the garden before winter. I hope you've hit bottom with the rash & it's all improvement from here. At least you've got a spot of Heaven to lift your spirits.

Lisa at Greenbow said...

Hi Beckie, I can so indentify with non sleep when taking predisone. That is one of the side affects. Hang in there girl.
Your photos here are beautiful. I love seeing all those pumpkins and gourds.

Wendy said...

Dear Beckie - rant, rave, cry, and whine all you want to. We're your friends and we love you. And - you can listen to us when it's our turn.

Your morning glory is absolutely stunning. I love the cheerful deep blue. I am glad you posted. It's nice to see what's happening in your little corner of the world too.

Oh that prednisone. I've never been on it, but hubby has. He can never sleep when he's taking it - makes him jittery. Kind of defeats the purpose of healing in a way, doesn't it? You definitely need to rest and yet that medication won't let you. But - it's the most powerful anti-inflammatory on the market.

So let it do it's work, curl up with a nice cuppa (I think nature girl said that and I'm stealing her words), draw a warm cozy comforter over you and bathe in the warm glow of all the love we bloggers are sending you.
Hugs, and Hugs, and more Hugs,

Meems @HoeandShovel said...

Beckie, I'm glad you know now what was causing the rash... knowledge is power... now you can look forward to your recovery and know it is right around the corner.

Love all the gords & squashes... they just evoke thoughts and feelings of autumn.

Can't ever get enough of the heavenly blue...
meems

Mountain Mama said...

I don't blame you for feeling grouchy. My cousin once had a reaction to medication that caused her entire body to turn dak red and blister, She peeled for a long time and was absolutely miserable. I found something on the Net about 'Red Man Syndrome
I think that is what she had although when I m,entioned it to her doctors they didn't seem very interested in investigating it.
I hope you are over this soon and feeling great again.

joey said...

It's OK to sit and ponder, dear Beckie ... 'Autumn Melancholy'. Trust me, we all have our moments and you are brave to share. Stay well, dear friend ... sometimes we simply need to rest and heal. Know that good thoughts and prayers are near ... they have certainly helped me though troubled times (which never seem to end ;)
(((BIG HUGS)))